Thursday, November 17, 2011

Six Months

In the moments leading up to Vada's heart surgery I held her close and breathed her loveliness in. I listened to her breathing and the other sounds that had become so familiar and comforting. I was terrified that this would be our last time together. If that was indeed God's plan for her I made sure to tell her things that I needed her to hear, even if she didn't understand them. I told her that I love her and that I had from the moment that I knew she was growing inside of me. I told her that my love never weakened but that it grew stronger and stronger with every moment of every day that passed. I told her that she has made my life better and happier because I got to be her Mommy. I asked her to fight to stay with us (even though it may have been a selfish request) and I told her that she was strong and beautiful and that it hasn't been only my life that's been blessed because of her but many other lives as well.

I have never had to face such frightening situations as I have with Vada and her health but I wouldn't change a thing and I wouldn't take back any choices made along our journey. Vada has made me stronger and I appreciate my own life more, because of how I have watched her fight--  not only to live but to learn-- she is amazing.

It's been six months since Vada's heart surgery and even now, when I think of that day my own heart becomes heavy and I feel the pressure in my chest returning. I hope to never face a day like that again but I am grateful that we did because today she is thriving and she is strong!

The scar is minimal but noticeable. The pinkish line reminds us all that life is precious and that we should cherish what time we do have here and together. It reminds me of the day I thought I was going to loose my baby but instead I gained a Heart Warrior instead.

Six months down and a lifetime to go!

Vada had open heart surgery in May of 2011 if you are interested in reading about her surgery and recovery as well as seeing pictures of what it all looked like (for her) I have added some quick links here, here, here, here, here, here, here, here, here, here, and here. All are for separate posts and range from the day before her surgery up until six weeks after.

1 comment:

Leah said...

Love it! And love seeing her scar. She looks amazing! I just commented on another blog's scar photos today. I've been thinking of photographing my own baby's again too. They really are fading fast. So hard to believe that something like that fades. But not in our memories.